I can be really emotional and needy.
I remember coming home as a child and crying to my mum “No one loves me mummy”.
Over the years, through the knowledge of Christ, I have become much less needy but I still yearn for earthly friendships.
Of course my best friends are in my immediate family, but apart from them I often ask myself who really are my friends. It’s funny because people who “know” me will swear I have tons of friends, as I seem to know everyone, but knowing people and having friends are two different things.
My seeming lack of friends was even more apparent after I had my baby; apart from family I didn’t have too many other people around me (until days later). For me, when friends have babies I try to see them in the same week but some people who I regard as friends saw baby for the first time on Sunday after 8 weeks -at her dedication. Maybe I expect too much.
The other day, it was the birthday of a dear friend of mine (one of the few). We (her friends) decided to have a surprise birthday and baby shower for her. It was really nice; two friends brought lovely cakes and we all brought food. She cried and was so moved. I thought to myself: who would think of having a party for me outside my immediate family? No one (well except A & T). I was so sad and a bit jealous until I heard the toast given by one of the friends “To H who has been a wonderful friend to us all”…
Eureka! you can only attract good friends by being a good friend yourself.
The truth is that I know I am a very good friend, but God was telling me to be better only then will I attract the right friends.